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短短一篇

2012-01-21T11:05:00.000+08:00

今天，我终与鼓起勇气写部落了...
鼓起勇气看你们的部落...
突然发现,
我...也许不会在你们的部落出现了

我已不是你们生活的一分子...

楚欢这个人已经是pass tense了

不是你们不在乎了

而是我不在了

去年是我那么多年以来最开心的一年
因为有你们...有他=)

你们要开心哦~ =）

好朋友不一定要见面

在心里的位置保持不变就好了

最近这几天...
都很糟糕

还没开学，

多的是时间

胡思乱想的时间...

我爱上了他 =')

2011-12-19T21:45:00.004+08:00

他...何时成为了我不能没有的人...

我...何时开始那么的依靠他...

他不会说话，他不会说福我

他不会说我想要听的话

可是他就是和之前的他们不同~

因为他...让我爱上了他=')

最近的我都很期待电话响起~

期待信息会是他寄来的

期待听到他的声音

可是总会一次再次的感到失落

不是他没信息我...打给我...

而是他们的信息已经慢慢的比他多了

为了隐瞒自己，

就只好用清除的方式

以前的他会快速的回我，

太久不回他，他会吹我

以前的他会在乎我到底有没有填饱肚子

买一整大包的muffin给我，

以前的他盖电话时是不会那么冷的,

讲话的方式也不是这样的...

以前的他不用我问我就会讲我爱你的

现在的我也不知道叫他说会不会很委屈他，

以前的他不会让我受委屈

会帮我说话，

以前的他会在我面子上的张贴照片

按个赞留个言，

以前的他会因为我迟睡而生气我，

以前的他会在我不舒服时煲凉水给我喝

有机会时弄三文治给我吃，

以前的他很想了解我

伤心时都会很想知道我为什么会那么伤心，

以前的他很乐意为我改变

付出,

以前的他就算在打机也快速的回我

不想要我生气，

以前的他会容忍我的脾气

不会在我发脾气时轻易放弃或生气，

以前的他总把我放在第一

总是紧张我的一切。

以前的他...让我心软的他...

刚开始的他...HIM

我知道久了会变

这一切都是以前

过去...回不来的以前...

虽然他们都说不用急嘛！

有Facebook,skype啊~

但是，

我会想念他紧紧拥抱着我的感觉，

想念牵着他的手的感觉，

想念当我不乖弄到眼睛红红时他用双手抓着我的脸

一幅担心的样子像我是他心里最重要的宝贝...那种感觉，

想念因为我太笨而取笑我的感觉，

想念和他一起看戏，走街，吃早餐，

荡秋千，拍照，发疯的感觉，

想念他静悄悄从后面下我的感觉，

想念他从后面拥抱我的感觉，

想念他把他重重的手搭在我肩膀的感觉，

想念和他一起在同一间课室同一间学校上课的感觉，

这一切一切！

都是我去到那边！

都失去的东西！ =')

我妒忌！

我妒忌将来坐他隔壁的女生！

我羡慕和他撒娇的女生！

我羡慕能和他又打又笑的女生！

我羡慕他觉得又可爱又美的女生！

我羡慕能得到他的支持的女生！

我羡慕能和他暧昧的女生！

我羡慕他挑细的女生！

我羡慕能和他接出的女生...

我羡慕她们拥有我没有的东西，

我已经不懂是羡慕...还是妒忌了...

至少她们不用害怕他丢下她们

不要她们...

说要分手...

我鼓起勇气的跟你提分手那么多次

你次次都叫我不要在提了！

你是不会丢下我的！

让我相信了你说的一切！

可是，今天因为我妈妈的一个问题

让你对我们的永远失去了信心...=')

对，未来你的家人还是会比我重要，

或者我不是那个能陪你到最后的女生。

或者我给不到你幸福...=（

我今天才知道，

为了把你留下我能做出一切...一切...

不过也许最后离开对方的...

不是你是我...

对于我们的未来，

我真的很害怕...

害怕得每天晚上都会流泪入睡=‘）

你是否知道？当我放=’）的时候

我的眼泪不是在眼睛里滚动就是已经留了下来...

你是否知道我笑容背后的疼痛！？

你是否知道你说你觉得不要继续这段感情的时候

我的心是多么的痛！

很像被很多巴刀同时插进心里~

想喊但是喊的时候是无声的~

呼吸的管道好像都被诸塞了那样~

我真的无法形容那种感觉...

原来你能把我的痛慢慢的带走，

再一次过还给我！

把我心的围墙都打倒=')

不知道为什么我会注定你是陪我到永恒的那位~

不知道为什么我会那么的爱你

我害怕你会再次说...

你要离开我

说真的我不知道你是否会看他这偏...

我不知道我的blog还是你的homepage...

或也许不是了吧...

你也是我第一个想让爸妈知道的男朋友=‘）

我真的很怕失去你`

我很怕我们的爱，

不足够让我们在一起到最后...

你到底有多爱我？？

足够维持到永远吗？=‘）

我真的...猜不透

你要什么...在想什么

我猜不透...

heartache....

2011-11-20T21:27:00.002+08:00

今天早上才刚刚跟自己说我不会再为了害怕而哭...

可是现在眼泪却不停的留...

我的心真的很痛~

我不能形容那感觉是如何的

可是真的很痛很痛...

也好的...

突然少了两个人怀念...

我不用再清除他的信息欺骗我自己

你的信息比他多

不用再欺骗自己比以前开心很多

不用再欺骗我自己你比他还要在意我...

不用再欺骗自己

我和你是完美的！

不用了

我不想每天晚上哭着入睡

对，我很烦

对，我很依靠

对，我很小气

对，我很自私

很爱吃醋...

我知道！

我知道当我另一半一点也不容易

一点都不幸福`

it's time to face the music...

I'm no longer in use =')

也许你觉得

你的时间不再值得浪费在我身上

我不再值得你哄...

不再值得你操心

不再值得你忍耐...

我太天真了

真的...

不管我现在多么痛苦

我也会忍着不找你了

因为你有了sakura

这是我和他的问题，

我不会再找你...

你不会了解我~

2011-10-26T22:17:00.004+08:00

苏依珊！

别问我为什么！

我只是懂我现在很想念你！

我在他面前伪装了那么久~

真的很辛苦...

一直用狂笑

带过我的愤怒...

告诉自己不要生气

不要心疼

因为辛苦的

心疼得也是自己...

我的眼泪还是不停的流~

叫我说出一切的不满

因为他会改~

改？！！

改拉！改给我看！

哼！=)

是我不好~

我不想再展现出我的心疼

我的心情

我不想你们担心

也免得！

一些不知丑的女生讲我

要别人注意

要别人同情！

跟他在一起是为了要出名！

恩我不要说出她是谁

因为...

咳。。。就是不想说~

我忍！

对，我已别~

我跟以前不一样了

对你，以前的我

也许很特别

可是现在的我

什么都不是....

只是个心里不平衡的女生~

对不起...

令你失望了...

不过你选择这样讲我

也许你不是我真真的朋友吧~

我...

很累。。。

不想再为你流泪~

你不会了解我~

因为现在的你...

根本已经没有兴趣要了解

我摆的几明显

你也不会看到...

天下乌鸦...一般黑~

2011-10-13T19:15:00.003+08:00

不知道已几久了...我没一个人到处跑~

应该是自从我跟他在一起之后吧？

真的不记得了...

今天本来有人约了，我也答应了

可是到最后一节发现自己没心情和他出=’（

对不起勇

也许我做值日只是借口，

也许真真不想的原因

是因为希望陪我的是他~

他都说明了以没那么爱我了

可是我还是那么天真~

到最后决定自己走去time square

走到一半看到盈，

可是我不敢叫她~

因为我在流泪，只好打给恩

到最后还是破坏了恩的快乐时光

所以决定盖电话...

一边走眼泪一边狂流

路人走过也许会觉得我傻了！

突然有个男生从后面撞我

我手上的书都跌到地上去了

他一边帮我把书拿起来一边一直说对不起

他头望上来时发现原来我在哭

我只好点个头察泪

看到他是循中的

不认识他也不记得他的学号

应该是高二的

他就从书包里拿了tissue出来

说不要哭了，察泪吧~

我呆了！！

我是在发梦吗？我问他==（我真白痴）

他说：不是阿，做么这样说哦？

我就说：因为他不会这样对我的，

而且这些情景也只会在戏里出现.

他取笑我==

就回答说：哦~原来是为了这个他吗？

不要哭啦，也只是个男人吗!

就讲了一大堆

其实我没在听

这是感谢他的陪伴

他陪我走到monorail后就说

他要搭LRT回了

叫我一个人要小心~

到了ts我就买了杯ice-blanded mocha<3

想回去

那男的蛮帅下吗=p

但是没问他什么班叫什么名==

真白痴！

要在那等妈妈等到四点

他昨天讲的一字一句又冲净我脑海里了

我恨他！

当初是他！叫我给他个机会！

是他！说他不会像他那样对待我！

也许就像盈说的吧~

天下乌鸦一般黑！

他没那么爱我了

久而久之他就会说

我爱上她了，我们分手吧~=‘）

是么？

我不是你的用具~

我...是你闷了的玩具！

去吧~

去打机...

答应这个答应那个~

为什么你们都一样的!?

你没错！放心我没说是你的错！

都是我的错！

天天乱发脾气

太天真

太自以为是

没站在你的角度看过~

我伤害你我的错

这真的不是你的错
是我的错，是我阻止你快活=')

盈，我希望~

你说的话都不是真的=’（

我现在想到你

我就想到嘉芬~

也许吧~

也许你是为了我好！

可是...

算了。。。

当我没说过

今天求妈带我去唱k

死命唱！

妈就是在那听~

她每次都会赞我唱得好

因为我跟她唱时是唱得最放的

可是她这次说

我比平时唱得有感觉

好像我真的知道那种感觉！

我只好笑笑

如果她知道我当时心里的感受

我相信她会知道为什么我今天唱得特别有感觉~

我没勇气离开他

或逼他走~

因为已经到了越来越爱的地步~

太迟了...

不要因为答应过不丢下我才不离开

好不好？

虽然你离开

我会崩溃~

会心疼

但是我不想到最后像文锐那样！

也不想跟一个

一天比一天不爱我的人在一起~

但是我现在不停的流泪~

我真的很想念你...

这么办？？

如果在读的任何人

能看到这边

按个赞好吗？

让我知道是有人在乎我的=‘）

谢谢

心疼了，他不爱了=‘）

2011-10-12T20:28:00.002+08:00

你们是说真的么？？

他真的不在乎了？=（

不要吓我好不好？

也许吧

也许你们说的对

他不在乎了

不爱了~

你们都只是在讲事实！

你不用感得难过~

不是你的错=)

你只是负责报备！

他上不上你又控制不料~

你不用安慰我

我也该面对事实了

他累了~

不爱了~

眼睛好累好痛

好像给我察伤了

这么办？

我明天不想做四眼妹呀！

好久没有这种感觉了

不知不觉躺在地上睡着了！

天呀~

幸好是弟弟进来

还可以跟他说什么事

如果是妈妈进来

我真的完蛋了==

心好痛

眼泪何时才能停止？

停啦好不好？？

真的很痛=（

brace myself for the goodbyes =(

cause that's all I've ever known

我很害怕

很伤心

很痛

这么办？=‘（

救救我。。。。

your tired of caring already

2011-10-10T21:44:00.017+08:00

After some time~

people will

adept

grow impatient

get tired

bored

change

ignore

just like you....

ma mu le!!!!

you don't care

don't bother

don't pay as much attention as before anymore

love would be nice in someone elses life

but not for me maybe~

I'm just too selfish

haih.......

am just so sick of

the worrying

the heartache

the arguments

you! ignoring the fact that I'm moody

and go along like nothing is wrong!

maybe your sick and tired already

sick of me throwing fits all the time

maybe it's time for you to get over...

and look for a new company

you don't ever know how to console me =(

it's a process you kn0w???

saying sorry

then crying

then redoing the same thing again

haih....

Maybe your just tired of caring already~

what else can I do besides worry?

2011-10-09T16:50:00.002+08:00

Besides worrying~

what else can I do really???

humans are selfish

what made me think that you would be different???

haih...

what's done is done...

There isn't a

restart....

undo....

or quit....

button in life...

unfortunately =(

all I can do now

is hope and pray~

I beg.......

please....

don't....

I'm scared...

this time not even you..

can make everything feel alright again=(

God please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D I'm sry~

is not that I don't wanna believe you

is just that

haih...

I'm still worried =(

what else am I expect trouble and inconvenience?

seriously???

I'm chaos itself! ='(

I'm really sorry

family really do comes first you know?

time to say goodbye to this place forever =)

it's the right thing to do

the thought of not coming here again

not seeing this place again

not having happy memories here ever again

just makes my heart hurt

the pain is excruciating

the parting....

the goodbyes

my tears just refuse to stop

I guess it's a fact

what starts must end

a hello must end with a goodbye

what goes up must come down

what's borrowed must be returned

nothing is permanent

And that is why we must treasure them~

as I will treasure you =')

these few days seems like hours.....

whatever it is

no matter how fast time pasts

the memories will remain

summer has to bid goodbye eventually

whether we wanna be parted a not

and till that day comes

all I can do is appreciate the presents off you guys =)

may god bless me <3

我...放手是我自作多情

2011-10-02T22:32:00.003+08:00

那天的你

给与了我足够的原因以后都不要睬妳

我今天拒绝了妳的“邀请”

真的觉得心疼~

可是我知道这样做是对的

今天是我第一次通过电话

亲口拒绝妳

说真的我的心很痛

妳当了我的好朋友那么多个月

=‘）

可是。。

我觉得妳一点也不心疼~

是我自作多情！

你根本就没在意过！

那天看到妳

我知道你是看到我的

可是你躲避我

你旁边的"她"~

我看得出"她"心里觉得很快乐！

看到我那时心疼得样子

"她"在偷笑!

"妳"嬴了

我不会"恨"妳~

我只会可怜那爱"妳"的他！

他向我喊救命！

他很痛苦

可是我帮不到他...

我让你赢是因为我知道我不能再这样下去~

他知道了会很伤心

我这样做是错的！

也许他已经懂了吧

只是在装不懂

其实你不应该为我流那么多泪~

因为我没你想象中的那善良

我心疼。。。

我不想再为你心疼~

希望我能放手

希望我可以。。。

...........................................................................................................

妈。。。

你想这么样？

爸这样做就不对！

你这样做就可以拉！！

还要发他脾气！

明明就是你不对！

不要这么没脑拉摆脱！

搞到大家气氛彼变僵的又是妳！

没脑的又是你！

爸明明就对你很好！

每天忍妳！

只有他才做得到罢了

我跟你说！

别自以为是！

=’（

Pages c=

2011-09-24T22:44:00.006+08:00

hohoho`

didn't feel like hitting the books

so.....

ended up doing this ><

音乐家族=)

要想个英文名才行叻！

woots ~

still bored......
so another page =)
yesh~
D you have so many pictures that look like you're drunk >,<
gosh~
your such an alcoholic! =(

快给意见！！
会不会很乱？
还是太多照片集在一起？=(
会吗？会吗？
超想念她/.\

hehe~
yong babe if you see this do tell me does it look weird~
but... I don't think you'll see this =/
but still!
just in case you do drop by <3
do tell me how it looks!
couse I'm planing on puting it on fb
we should really take more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxo

My peeps ;)

2011-09-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

我看了你的blog~

对不起啦

我不是故意要刻你的心的！=（

你是第一个知道的叻！

有没有暗爽？？

咳~

我知道你明白那种失望

那种感觉不好受~

我活该/.\

成绩是我自己拿回来的！

谢谢你和他的安慰=）

喂！

这么形容我的脸形容得那么肥！！

/.\ *sad*

还要这么自恋！

你呀！

不要总是为了你所为的他拉~

你也要顾你自己阿

美女minim~

知道吗？？

<3 muack.....

哎哟~

你知道我喜欢你哪一点吗？

就是喜欢我每次坐去你隔壁时

都会笑到流口水=p

（夸张了一点）

嘻嘻

不用对不起

就是喜欢那傻婆的你！

在你面前我走样的最多！

带毕crotchet！

每次弄到我狂笑==

害到我在帅哥面前走样！

(你知道我在讲谁啦 x)）

讨厌拉~=p

嘻嘻~

哦我的天呀！

她好帅哦！

这么可能？？？

跟男生拍照

照片里最帅的反而是她叻==

我接受不到咯!

rest note!

都是你的错咯！！

飘飘了~

ham jim bang==

can don't be yucky boh?

dai bbbbbbbbbbbbb~

say other dai b some more

very gou b meh u? =p

pls don't worry or pity me anymore~

I'm not worth the time

just live your life

don't worry bout me =)

I'll live~

I will not blame you

when one day

you get sick and tired of

me and my bitchy temper c=

and move on.....

xoxoxo<3

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Taylor Lautner

is so fudging HOT!!

*pinch me* x)

hehe~

don't jealous oh

low bbbbbbbbbbbbbb! =P

nani nani boo boo

blek~

why??

2011-09-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

别指望我谅解~

别指望我体会~

我没她那么的伟大！

为什么？

我答应了minim的~

我终于成功了

但是为什么现在的我不再找你

你却一直找我？？

为什么？？

为什么？

你在我最需要安慰的时候

最低落的时候

最需要朋友的时候

最迷失的时候

总是会出现？？='(

多希望我的朋友和他都跟你一样

这么多人

为什么会是你？

我真的不明！

我...

会无法抗拒

把一切都说给你听？！

我答应你没走之前不会流泪...

但是对不起

我第二天就

让你失望了...

我好像没次都让你失望对不对？

对不起~

我是不是应该感激呢？=]
谢谢你`

一直不放弃

一次再次的扶我起来

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

为什么？

最近痛苦的回忆又再次在我脑海从播？

我为了你

不顾面子~

失去信任~

失去朋友~

何必？

你一点都不值得！

还记得

那天是个星期五~

我真的忍不住了

你根本没把我放在眼里~

你一天到晚不回我信息不找我

也就算了！

还要一天到晚找她！

你阻止我跟毅勇讲话

我就不能阻止你跟她？！

我不想说出她是谁！

因为我不会那么贱！

我决定去你班找你

跟你说我的感受

但是你的反应是如何？？

你根本就没有觉得你自己做错什么！

你只是一直怪我！

有的没的都在怪我！

到最后还在那么多人面前骂我！

都不是第一次的拉~

还讲要隔离一段日子

那时的我没你觉得活不了这样

一直不肯放手！

现在严重后悔！

我不肯走~

到最后你逼我走

你说你数三声如果我还不离开！

我们就分手

那时的我整个狗这样照做

眼泪忍不住的狂流

回到班我已经不能在控制了~

咳。。。

不只这个还有很多~

只是我不想再想了

现在的你在快活！

但是现在的我...

还是老样子~

恨你也没用...

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

be happy =))))

Dress to impress~

doodle for joy~

write to express~

sing to make people listen~

I wish to stand out of the crowd c=

唱k

2011-09-21T21:22:00.001+08:00

第一次和朋友去唱k

而且是真的打算去唱的！

不然就已经算很多次了

开心哦c=

谢谢你们！

我唱得很烂！

还想要当歌手==

我真的是在发梦

唱得很high~

haigh到爬上椅子！

初初还以为会很闷

因为我少听华文歌

所以她们点的歌

我只会chorus吧料==

有些跟死！

厅都没有听过！

但是最后最high的

反而好像是我==

pai seh lar =p

最可怜是rest note

没什么唱到！

在那边吃吧料！！！！

fatty bom bom!

哈哈！

还要按着良心讲我唱的很好/.\

咳。。。

anyways...

thanks for today peeps =)

hope there will be a next time!

xoxoxxxx

你看穿了我=’）

2011-09-21T19:24:00.002+08:00

你说得没错~

你唯一错的地方就是，

我的缺点还有很多=）

我认！

依珊为什么你会那么的仔细去观察呢？

对，我喜欢用微笑带过

我胆小，

我就算那么的不爽任何人

我也不会要跟他反脸或吵架

因为我知道

我会输！

而且我身边的朋友也不算多

我。。。很在意别人这么看待我

对，我想要一个

不需要我说但会懂我的心情

知道我在想什么的人

不露出表情但会知道我需要什么

的人。。

但是是我也知道

这是不可能的

我太自大了！

谁会那么白痴要当我心中的这种人

我也不是什么大人物！

我只是海中那么的一滴水~

对,我很莫名其妙

一直乱发脾气

很多人都不爽

这个，我知道。。。

如果你仔细观察你会发现

我的伤口~

我无时无刻都会感到的寂寞~

我眼泪在眼睛里滚动~

我已经无法再隐藏了

但是我不知道你也会感觉到我的痛~

对不起。。。

我什么都做不好

就连当个朋友的基本要求

我也办不到

许多人来跟我诉苦

但是，我没诉过几多次

我的伤口没好过

只是感得越来越痛~

我的特点是小气~

爱吃醋~

对，我的泪水就如雨的在流~

累了就会不知不觉的睡着

尝试用幽默与狂笑来隐藏一切

用搞笑，热闹掩盖着心跳

边哭边笑

心想着现在如此的美好

但还是逃不过那伤口和回忆

带来的疼痛~

我没想过你会写得出这一切=‘）

你会那么仔细的观察到

我没藏好的一切

亲爱的~

也许我真的太明显了~ C=

these wounds don't seem to heal,

the pain is just too real...

it's just something that time cannot erase~

很久没再去呆的地方~

2011-09-09T19:06:00.003+08:00

What do I do when I have a break down in school??

what do I do when I feel like crying?

where do I hide when my tears are rollin' down my cheeks?

who can I count on...

when I feel left out, invisible, lonely??

crotchet..... 不是你不了解我

而是我没给你机会了解我~

不要生气不要误会

这就是讨人厌的我~

只要你能保持现在那么傻那么可爱，

就可以了

我会爱死你的。。。

对不起

rest note~

谢谢你的comment C=

你只要像现在这么直接这么三八

就可以了~

虽三八。。

但还是那么帅拉~

有没有暗爽？！

minim~

谢谢你的支持~

一切都不是你的错

是我该面对的事实，

害怕。。。

到最后还是要面对。。。

这是我自己的问题

不必自责~

躲在那儿...

我真的感觉很孤单很难受

已经好久没必要到那儿去呆了...

虽然我天天都会去哪...

但，没必要呆如此的久

可是今天的我，

真的不知道该到哪里去...

我...

真的害怕撑不下去了

因为他的那句话~

我答应过自己不会再写的

但是最总还是忍不住了...

我真的需要发泄

The laughter, giggles, smiles on my face doesn't always

pepresent joy or happiness,

soemtimes it just means that I'll manage... =')

somehow...

pls believe me!

I'm really trying...

说过我不会为了。。。

咳。。。

恩，可是。。。

有第一次就会有第二次

说不定

永远都是这样了！

我干我干我干！！

pls take the fear and pain away~

pls....

灿烂的笑容~

2011-08-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

对~

你说得对！

我的部落的确没人看。。。

我人缘不好。。。

但是，

你错的是我写。。。

不是为了给谁看！

而是记下当天的不愉快！！

对不起！

我人缘没你那么好！

对不起！

我没kinki那么优秀！

我没嘉芬那么讨人喜爱！

我没皓涵那么能配合你！

我没你兄弟们那么会开玩笑！

他们有的我通通都没有！

其实我什么都没有

什么都做不好。。。

女儿。。。

朋友。。。

女友。。。

我也没强项！

如果你要找的是以上那几个的组合！

我看。。。

我不适合你~

为什么我会那么天真！？

还对人间有希望！

就凭你那“你不应该给我个机会吗？”

而改变主意！

楚欢阿！！

你醒啦！！！

到最后~

伤害的也不是自己？

折磨的也不是自己？

明知道结果会如此。。。

却相信有奇迹~

每天笑得如此的灿烂~

盖过那永远不离开的寂寞与伤口~

我也会累的。。。

我真的会。。。

我想要的生日礼物

是真真的笑容以及朋友们的关怀=')

如果我得罪了任何人对不起。。。

真的。。。

对不起。。。

我的心，

为什么不能停止流血~

真的很痛。。。

不过佩恩。。

依珊~

谢谢你们今天的生日礼物=）

真的谢谢。。。

我还是不舍得开。。。

有人吗？？

能救我吗？？
能把痛都带走吗？

能把一切一切的痛。。。

都带走吗？=‘）

拜托。。。

pictures C=

2011-08-02T21:18:00.005+08:00

Ish... I look hidious /.\

I want the other pictures D!!!

our first picture =)

thou I look ugly /.\

don't jump >.<

oppss.... wrong scene

btw~ we were tryin to film a movie...

oh my gosh!!!

my epic brother

Devil~

cute san san =]

san san's house~

恨！

2011-08-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

我为什么会这样？？

咳....

明天这么过已不再重要了。

突然对这个世界没了任何的希望~

我的情绪已到了最低落的边缘,

昨天眼泪也不知不觉的流了下来。

我不能再用微笑带过...

我真的很累了...

对不起~

请原谅我的自私。

你没欠我任何的东西，

我凭什么给你脸色看呢？

我没资格！

为什么生别人的气时要扯到你身上去呢？

对，

你永远都不会知道我生气的原因~

对不起...

我恨这个世界！

Quaver拜托你!

别在让我恨你了好不好？

我太在意！

I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world~

2011-06-27T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hmm.... today was....

emotional~
there are some things I agree with

and some I don't

I really should give myself a chance...

to bland in...

to be part of something.

It's really tiring trying to please everyone everytime!

at the end....

no one's pleased~

I'm just a girl,

trying to find a place in this world....

I don't open up easily~

once a secret is told

no mather it's to a single person or two

it's no longer a secret.

as long as someone other then you knows it

it's no longer a secret.

Humans are selfish....

well...

it's not fair for me to say all...

but most of them are.

trust.....

is hard to build

but easily broken~

I find it difficult to let people in..

to trust someone...

Some things happen for a reason...

Haih....

Who am I to judge anyway~

Anyways....

enough of this crab!

"Somebody" said he was gonna buy me Mc flurry!!!

was so hyped up =))))

then....

unforcunately /.\

that stupid McD in ts...

I'm so sorry,

no ice-cream today...

the machine's out of order

/.\

why????!

so....

I ended up getting fries

and coke!!

AGAIN!

Gosh.....

Am addicted to th raisins my mummy bought

good news is!!

I can snack whenever I want!

Cause it's not gonna make me fat xD

Woots!!!

injection tomorrow!

oh boy /.\

god help me!!

I'm gonna die~

yesh...

I'm over reacting again =="

drama queen xP

Lalala....

Got lots to write but

LAZY!!

another random picture

taken by a random person~

Currently listening to baby got back!!

LOL (;

Sports on Sunday

2011-06-26T22:33:00.006+08:00

Went back to school for sports today....
Well...
technically you could put it that way~ x)

Hor D!!!!!!!!!! =P
IMY!!
although am texting you~

LALALA~

Basketball / Volleyball

suck at both =="
Half way through it rained!

Wee!!!
Just what I needed~
Seems so long since I last stood under the pouring rain....

Haha...
Am not gonna be too detailed~
Cause there isn't much time.

Went crazy with Pei en =]
shared secrets/go loco

with her! xD

hehe~ This one's with rest note =P
stole from her blog ~
teehee...

Woots xD
篮球女神~
No... actually I am only refering to the one on the left
the right one posting only =P

this one hor....
was standing under the rain posting...
then "SOMEONE"
Yelled at me!
Sei yeh!!
See what you did!
zhou yang /.\
luckily back profile not front profile....

this one's the normal one~

yeee....
macam yes x)

Woots~
This one memang yes lar...

=="

so serious~
it's my ball!!!

*Mikasa*
the wisest choise~
xD

Pei en!!!!
haha...
I enjoyed going crazy in the rain with you today <3
Hope there will be a next time soon =)

HEHE....
actually rest note...
Pei en today early already reached skul =P
Sorry >.<

PS: I did practise okay~ x)

Currently listening to loca by Shakira the sexy Latin c=

Mid Valley with D

2011-06-26T21:36:00.007+08:00

Haih.... Parents' day today!! (Saturday)

Gosh.... don't wanna be detail on how it went
worse ever.... I'm sorry dad /.\

I really am...

not living up to your expectations~

A promise is a promise,
I'll keep it

Anyways~ After Parents' day =]

Went to Mid Valley with D!!

OMG~

he took so long to shower=="
Blame your towel some more! =P

Moving on~

We watched two movies

Treasure Inn~

and...

Dylan Dog~

Comedy + Horror/Action

Great combination C=

Then ate the pasta D made,

not bad for a first timer =]
was YUMMY xD

Success success success

Look so....
In this photo! x(

Chubby!!!!! x(

After the first movie...
ate again =P
so...... not part of the plan!

I ordered...
Carbonara

Seriously....
Wasn't that nice~
*regrets*
D's pasta tastes so much better seriously~

D ordered pancake =)
Look yummy I know!!!!
I defo was!! YUMMY xD

Then we ate this TWICE!
LOL
Am addicted to it already~
Gosh...
CARBS CARBS CARBS!
FAT FAT FAT!
neh~
Who cares =P

MOO COW xD

Frosen yogurt with
Chocolate chip~<3

Frosen yogurt with
chocolate syrup~
I know what ur thinking...
Both chocolate =P
I heart CHOCOLATE!!

D arh!!
Say I mei nao!! /.\
*sobs*
LOL
you're so smart!!
Ya, and I blog very slow de....
sorry =P

PS: This was on Saturday c=

anger??

2011-06-23T22:03:00.004+08:00

哇哇哇哇！！
semibreve!!!
你!我佩服你!

讲到好像是我错完背叛你这样!

当初谁对谁奸，我很清楚!

你别影响我的情绪阿!

记得？？
that should be me??

哼!

你对我很好夏？

我有忘记了承诺哦？

别把一切赖在我身上!

他样样比你好!

....................................................................................................

好心你啦!

人缘好不是大完的啊BITCH!

如果不是因为他，

我还会给面子你哦？

是...人虚假也算了~

但是，假到你这样!

真的是!

算了吧~

我不跟你计较!

可能是我误会你吧~

听Quaver的，

大人不记小人过!

还有好多事情烦!

不想理你~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

crochet 别伤心啦=(

有我帮你垫底啦~

还有我不想去喝茶叻T.T

wu.....ah~

rest note 你找到就好啦xD

对不起啦

明天陪不到你...=（

hehe~

还有xuan

如果你有看到，

想跟你说!

不要那么悲观啦，

比我还要严重咯!

我接受不到咯!!! xD

...............................................................................

HOHOHO~

补回我那天第一次驾车的照片!! =)

好像是这样=p

明明就是嘛~

Woots~ =)

D!!!!!!!!!!
Forgotten to take pictures arh!!!
Wu..ah...

Disgusting lar you!!
YUCK!!
Blek~ =P
Don't think too much ya!!!

Currently listening to That should be me by JB c=

21/6 & 22/6

2011-06-22T21:39:00.005+08:00

gonna blog yesterday first =)
went to Sunway yesterday!

cause daddy had to meet someone there~

which gives me the opportunity to SHOP! xD
but bought little...

*Items*

six books~

hand lotion~

The happy go lucky dude~

with the *peace* sign c=

PEACE =)

HMM.... is it me?

or boy do my arms look *meatless*? @@

.....................................................................................................................

Well~
Everything between me n Quaver is finally back to normal! =)
Am so freakin' glad!! xD
But he just refuce to tell me the cause of this madness!
Argh~/.\
Anyways, hope nothing like that well ever happen again...

I should have listened...
I really should have =(
I should have just ask sb to help me return the fudging THING!
Luckily I brought Crochet along~
My heart was beating so fast!
I really wanted to turn and walk away...
but that would only show that I still care
am so not gonna let that BIATCH n RUBBISH feel that way!

Your just a liar I once daned
and foolishly fell so hard for!
Crowded by gals you aways are~
You're such an Idiot...
I wasn't wrong,
If anyone wanted to look for you
just find a crowd of girls~
you'll be near by =)
without fail!

So many slaves you own....
HAIH....
what a shame~
Fudge off BIATCH!
Don't come near me...
Yuck!

Anyways...
rest note...
aiyor....
nvm lar...
I don't blame you..
ur just speaking your mind~ =]

D!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeeeeeeee~
your disgusting!
Blek!!!
N your suppose to sleep early!
So why are you still staring at the computer!
faster go sleep la!
You still have to teach me MATHS!
pig pig g! x))

I hope~

2011-06-20T21:18:00.004+08:00

When you think Taylor Swift~

I hope you think my favourite song,

the one I sing to all day long....

When you think happiness

I hope you think of us again,

and what used to be~

When you think Taylor Swift...

I hope you think of me ='(

When you think Taylor Swift,

I hope you think my favourite song,

someday you'll turn your radio on...

I hope it takes you back to that place~

Get out of my head ='((

What did I do??

Did I do something really horrible??

Why are you so cold? ='((

Please stop this madness!

I can't take it~

I'm... not that strong...

对不起爸妈~='(

2011-06-19T21:16:00.003+08:00

本来刚刚要写的是我第一次驾车的...
可是现在真的没心情了~

我真的好久好久没在爸妈的面前哭了...

爸妈如果你有一天看到这个blog的话~

对不起~ ='(

我之前的成绩那么好，

都是因为爸爸会打...

每次都会哭得不像样...

妈妈感得心疼~

所以税负了爸爸不要再打了

之后，

成绩就一年比一年差...

现在差到这样，

我真的不懂要这么跟他们交待~

我要什么他们都给我！

机会他们也给了很多！

他们的成绩都那么好！

我要他们躲去哪里！！？

妈妈看到了我在面子书写的状态,

“如果今年能从来，我不会做这个选择”

她问我什么选择

你叫我这么回答她？！！

你现在又不睬我！！？？

你叫我这么安心！！？

你叫我这么不哭！

对不起...

不是你们的错，

而是我不懂事...

我跌了那么多次，

你们一直都希望我会知痛而醒！

可是...

却越跌越爽！

你们的要求从不高~

但是我现在连及格都没有！

我凭什么当你们的孩子！

连孩子的本分都做不好！！

对不起~ =’(

是我不好...

让你们丢脸了...

我会争气！='(

对不起...

还有你！

我拜托你

可以应我么...='(

Douchebag! ='(

2011-06-19T13:32:00.007+08:00

我现在是这么了？？

我已经没勇气再问了...

我也不知何必那么的在乎~

成绩已经够烦了...

hmm....

不想想那么多！！

妹！！你就爽咯~

出去T.T

我在家发霉~

照片照片！！

那天上学会拍的/.\

还有几张很严重够力丑T.T

我讨厌你！

我跟你讲！！！

hmm.... hmm...

how how??

spot any of them to replace my

profile picture?? x)

LALALALALALALALALALALALALA~

Haih...

what's is wrong with me!!!!!!!!!?

sorry?

sorry isn't th word I asked for douchebag!

I asked for the reason!

Arggh!!

You're driving me nuts!!

I don't have the guts to ask anymore...

I don't wanna be annoying

I wanna let nature take its course~

But I'm not sure if I could do that...

I really wish that everything will be fine again!

I don't wanna live like this

成绩对我的情绪影响得不够吗！？？

2011-06-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

我到底要跌多少次才会醒？？

我真的不懂。。。

成绩这么能越来越烂！？

一打开面子书，

不是看到别人在炫耀自己的成绩~

就看到了那些照片！

你答应过我你不会post上去的！

你是人吗！？

你有感觉的吗？

我有感受的你懂吗？！

不过我也满佩服你，

真会选时间！

我忍了很久的眼泪，

就这样流了下来...

你开心了吗！？

你叫我这么见人！？

成绩都已经烂到这样了！

现在连形象都没了！

我恨死你！='(

现在的我已比以前的我更没自信了...

Quaver~

你可以不要再玩弄我了吗！？

你明知道你对我的情绪有很大的影响的！

你别说你不懂！='(

我现在很需要你...

你去了哪里？？！

星期一那一天，

是你第一天不回我信息。

以前不管你有多忙，

你晚上都会回我的。

星期三...

线了一封“明留？”

你...没回我~

是你第二次不回我。

我每次找你时，你都会回我的...

你从不失陪...=')

你从来没这样对过我！

我的心真的很痛...

我们到底这么了？？

你可以回答我吗？？

我在很努力的忍着不找你~

对不起。。。

我知道我太弱了...

今天的作文，我本来要写你的。

你懂么？=‘）

可是...

你最近还好吗？？

我快成不住了...

我也伪装不出笑容了...

我今天哭了你懂么？

你听到吗！！！！？？

你听不到...

你快点回来好不好？='(

我觉得...

慧贤的病在我身上还好过~

至少她活得有价值！

你快点好回啦！！='(

我真的很失败...

真的很乱...

我逃避不料现实~

咳...

本来今天要写不同的东西的~

可是看到了照片之后...

真的忍不住了.

开学？

2011-06-12T21:08:00.005+08:00

yee....每次讲花时间弄好这blog~

最后也是没弄到...

明天要开学了~

我不要阿！！

我不想看到dot dot dot....

跟妹一样啦，哎哟~

什么都没准备，

没心情啊！

hmm....移民的好处咯！！

那边比较轻松！xD

但是还是有数学-.-

咳...

但是全部用英文叻！！

开心死我料~

我的朋友不是你！

我真的接受不到咯！

哪里可以这样的T.T

不过你讲得对拉...

是暧昧料一点...

我改变一点咯，行不？

妈咪刚刚第一次跟我讲她不要去拿成绩单~

不要坐下来听班导讲废话

要拿了就走人==''
也许是我成绩太烂了吧

算吧~

到时再讲！

我知道妈咪看到这张会讲什么~
好像营养不足叻~

我不知道为什么~

突然有一种很空虚的感觉。

我很想念妳~

我想念初一那时书呆子的我和三八的你！

去到哪里看到我就看到你，

看到你就看到我~

不管是我跟我的他在一起

还是你跟你的他在一起

我们都是在一起~

现在的我们呢？

我不再了解你了~

你也不再了解我了吧？

咳...
讨厌这种感觉！

现在你~

在做什么呢？？

不知道，

你会不会有看到这篇文章的一天...

我们是。。。

不等式的方程式么？

呵呵~
希望不是吧=（

我真的想妳了~

listening to permanent marker by Taylor~

What am I good at? D:

2011-06-11T15:59:00.003+08:00

Am I really that terrible??
Why do I keep hurting people?
Why do I keep making people cry?
Why do I keep making people think they are failures??!
The real failure is me do you people know that?!

I made semibreve cry....

I made D cry....

I made my friend cry...

I made my mum cry...

Who's next?
My brother?!

GOSH~

I hate to admit but ya maybe ur right mum...
I no longer know the meaning of life...
maybe all I look forwards to is have fun n be happy
Cause I was so deprived of joy n happiness when I was caught up
with semibreve....
I lost everything...
for that jerk
It's devastating! =(

ur right~
I have no confidents
because my results are so bad!
It's really bringing down...

ur right mum...
you are~

I admit it sucks being a nobody!
My priorties aren't right...
I seek popularity and beauty~
I don't wanna leave here without a trace...

That's why~
The real failure is me...
The problem is me
not you guys~

And D I do appreciate..
if you get a grip~
and stop sobing so easily...
Honestly...
It's really creeping me out >.<

Let me get things straight okay?
I'm the one who is suppose to sob easily~
Not you!
STOP stealing my job!
Tq~

And Quaver I really don't know why~
I'm just so attached to you,
although I know I might not
mean much to you....
I'm just so messed up right now...

What am I good at?
I'm going nowhere!
My study sucks...
My sports sucks....
My music isn't going anywhere!
What am I good at??!

There's nothing I can excel in...
Is there?

rest note... ur history is at least going somewhere~
you can teach in the future...

crotchet ur good at cooking~
You've got ur aim, ur gonna be a chef in the future...

yong... ur synchronized swimming rocks!
you can be a coach in the future...

D ur good at volleyball...
you can excel in sports in the future...

Quaver~
You'll survive -.-
You always do...

And friends...
whoever that is reading this...
(which I doubt there would be anyone)
most of you have ur strenghths already!

And I'm still searching...

Currently listening to Perfect nightmare by Shontelle

Tragic ending to a near perfect day~

2011-06-07T21:13:00.005+08:00

Well, everything was awesome today~ =')
But unfortunately everything came crumbling down
in the end....

Dad picked me up,
it's been a week since I last saw him~
hmm.....

The first thing he talked about is Australia
again....
My smile started to fade,
every single negative thought came crashing down.
I started breathing heavily.

Wondering~
Will anyone miss me when I'm gone?
What will I leave behind?
Will I get use to it there?
Will I fit in?
Will I die crying?
Will I make new friends there?

All the whys.... x'(

I wish...
I could be cheerful bout it like my parents and brother are~
but...
I just can't! ='(

Seeing my anoying mummy packing up....
the house gets emptier day after day...
oh ya~
she's all so keen to go there!

why are my tears falling?
I'm a nobody! x(
you know what?!
maybe I don't need to be sad!
at all!
maybe nobody will remember me!

maybe nobody....

I'm invisible =(

currently listening to White horse by *Taylor Swift*

You'll never get me~

2011-06-06T21:08:00.003+08:00

Guys are so clueless????!
Gezz.....
You still don't know what I'm angry at right?
Maybe it's a good thing you don't!

You suck =')
LIKE LIKE LIKE!
Tell ya what~
go like every god damn thing!
I don't give a damn!

Ya, I'm moody!
I'm hard to handle!
I'm a hand full of trouble!
You wanna let me go better do it now~

Hmmm......
Tiger will be my accompaniment tonight xD
It'll take away the pain and anger I bet =')
At least it will for now!

Haih....
I'm just a useless person...
Wasting human resources~
You know what rest note?
You were wrong!
I'm not good at anything....
Just good at causing trouble.....

Song of the day: Smile by the pretty Avril Lavigne <3

Mid Valley =)

2011-06-05T19:05:00.006+08:00

Yay~ x)
I'm gonna blog bout yesterday ^^
Went Mid Valley with D~
That pityful fellow had to wake up at 6...

cause stupid me didn't know how to take a bus there~
But ended up going there by car><
gezzz.....
My apologies to that~ x(

Oh... and sorry Denise for disturbing eu
from your beauty sleep~
Hope you didn't mind dear~

Moving on....

we arrived quite early....
most of the stores weren't even open yet~
Gosh...
First time

Unfortunately the queue for the movies
was already.......
quite long~
but we managed to get tickets!

Weeee~ xD
We watch two movies~

The first was Kung Fy Panda2
Lol, my third time watching it~

The second movie was...

X-men First Class

both movie was awesome =]

Hehe~
We ate Japaness food for lunch and dinner =P
Lunch in The Gardens
and....
dinner in Mid Valley
haha, Pattern~

We took the bus home,
he sent me all the way as usual,
told him not too but he's so
STUBBORN!!

gosh....
Third time already =(
He had to take a taxi home after sending me...
I feel so troublesome x(
yet he insisted!
STUBBORN!

D thanks for everything c=
ILY <3
xoxo =]

Rest note not my fault you become
Daibbbbbbbb okay?
you are the one making me
daibbbbb xD
Go gila your Misster lar~ <3

Song of the day : Ours *Taylor Swift*

Be happy =')

2011-06-02T22:39:00.003+08:00

HMMM.....
Where should I start??!
I didn't write for the pass few days!
ish~
regret!!
I'll just skip to the points then~

Rest note arh~
yeee..... I still hate you for saying going out with me is bored T.T
I can't tell you that I'm sure your mum will be fine with it,
all I can tell you is that you are what you choose to be
and I'll always support ya <3
你帅啦！！=]
可是不够我D帅！=P
Blekkk。。。。。。
remember SMILE SMILE SMILE! :D
不要变整个我这样~

Crotchet!!
enjoy your trip~
remember to miss semiquaver and rest note wor =)

sometime I really wish that Semibreve can just disappear you know!!
gezzz...... =(
so sick of him poppin' out to distory every moment
and hmm... how such I put it
fiddle with the scars to make me painful and miserable!

Darn it!

The more I think of what you've done to me,
the more I hate myself for tolerating it for so long!
Just DISAPPEAR already ='(

Quaver apologized that day...
I still wonder how he found out that I was mad><
maybe it was the way I last texted ....
so.... unlike me x)
Anyways... I forgave him like always =="

Hehe~ <3
You know... I always thought that some things would only happen
in fairytales..... or movies....
I guess I was wrong =)

IMY D =(

Saturday please do hurry come my way! xD
Ehee~
BTW~ I still feel bad you taking a taxi home cause of me =(
told you I'll take the freaking' bus home alone you won't let me!
I will be fine kay!!
I have face problem, no one will be interested =="

ILY D!!!!!!!!! <3
OH MY GOSH~ I'm going crazy x))

D please don't tear anymore....
I wish I don't have to leave too =')
Please be strong,
don't be like me ><
xoxo~

矛盾的心情~

2011-05-29T13:21:00.004+08:00

hmm.... Where should I start?

今天不知做么

五点就醒了~

最近都睡不好。。。

等下爸妈就要去机场了，

应该是7号才回来吧~

丢下我跟弟弟给外婆T.T

咳。。。

都不知该伤心还是开心><

矛盾叻！

很想出街啊啊啊~

很生气Quaver！=（

你这个死东西！

咳。。。

算了~

我也早该知道你是这样的吧。。。

突然很想念我的iPhone4啊！T.T

哼！那个偷了的人一定会有报应的！

现在自拍都麻烦！

希望我的眼睛快点好吧，

我不想带眼睛阿！

还有你呀！

打球小心点啦！

记得不要喊得太大声，

天天爱自high的你~

真的是啊。。。

喊到伤风咳嗽的~><

不要再喊了啦

加油！！=] <3

Flashbacks

2011-05-28T13:45:00.004+08:00

I want my eyes to heal...

yet I keep tearing~

HOW IS IT GONNA HEAL!!?

I don't wanna wear glasses =(

Scars? Wounds?
They'll heal right??

Why isn't the scars semibreve left on me healing??! ='(

It still hurts....

I still tear.... =(

It still effects me~

physically and mentally!

The flashbacks don't leave me alone...

Haih.....

Anyways......
I was going through the pictures of me last time...

and OMG=="

I was so so so geeky!!

ish~
yong ah!! we so long never take picture adi T.T

hate you, I look so ugly beside you T.T

hehe~

got a few decent ones thou =)
just a few.....

so.....

I took the time to put them together xD

see!!!

every picture also wearing glasses =="

OMG~

Is it me??
I really feel like we're falling apart =(

most of the times~

you seem like you don't really wanna speak to me

I just hope I'm thinking too much again~

I really need to take more pictures with you guy!

before I leave =')

Can't be camera shy anymore!

Though I always look horrible T.T

< am not photogenic` >

haih....

I will really miss you guys ='(

Time seems to pass so fast...

It really isn't fair =(

对不起~

2011-05-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

今天。。。

我终于鼓起勇气对他说了

我将离开~

对不起

我知道对你很不公平=（

虽然你说你没事，

但是我知道你心里一定很难受

对不起。。。

我应该早点跟你说，

让你有个选择是否还要我。

真的对不起~

我知道你很不开心，

我却安慰不了你。

有时我真的觉得你对我太好了，

我配不起你。。。

你需要嘉芬我不怪你~

因为就像我需要Quaver那样~

一样的。。。

可是到现在为止，

我还是真的不懂我到底对他有多重要。

也许没那么重要了吧=（

今天这么了？

看见班导哭，

我的眼泪也不知不觉的留了下来~

她说她失败，

其实也许我比她还要失败。

连个学生的本分都做不好！

我是这么了？

我的成绩说出了一切，

我根本！

没读书=（

我到底在做什么？

样子又没有，

成绩又没有~

我真的不懂我到底还有什么。

the haunting pain~

2011-05-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

I'm looking at a girl in the mirror,

her face is filled with tears and has eyes as red as ever...

I used to know her,

pretty well I'll say...

but now...

I barely know what she's thinking anymore.

I don't even know what's the reason that's making her sob.

I just know that she's in pain,

can someone please just take the pain away? ='(

It's really destroying her =(

I miss the her I used to know....

为什么我的成绩会越变越烂？？！

只能怪自己吧。。。

他们贬低你，

不是他们的错。

因为他们说的都是事实！

我没能力！

我的眼睛几时才会好？=（

我真的很累。。。

我到底能保持那虚假的笑容到何时呢？

有谁会知道我心里在想什么？

没人吧~ =‘）

i n 3^o7 I

2011-05-21T22:28:00.004+08:00

好久没写了呢~
今天听靖莹讲了后...
我也赞同
如果再不记录在循中度过的时光，
恐怕会没机会了~
也许之前暂停的原因是因为...
不想把一切的心情都公开吧
到最后就没东西写了
哎呀~
但是现在想想...
也没人会要来看我的blog的那~
因为今年的班导没有给我们写日记，
所以很多东西都没记录下来了...

那我就从今天开始写起吧=)
今天，跟xx和xx去了是非站
好久没去了，
其实我想去的目的也只有一个~
为了拍下semibreve之前在墙上写过的东西...
但是每次去的时候都给别人坐了.
虽然现在已不再重要了~
但是，这是之前的承诺...
至于那张照片，
还是不要放比较好！

hmmm.....
我好久没写关于Quaver <3的东西了呢！^^
如果之前有偷看过我的日记的人，
你就知道我在讲谁了.
嘻嘻~
就是...
一个常在我日记上出现的人物=）
但是没人知道是谁哦！x)
teehee~
咳...
讲到他，
最近我们的感情好像疏远了=(
也许我又再想太多吧！
希望是~

今天的心情是超不好的，
我的成绩真的很烂！=(
只能怪自己...
咳...
现在的心情真的很乱
我看我的眼睛真的是永远都不会好了.
不知为什么眼泪就是会不知不觉的留下

我回来了~

2011-03-07T19:22:00.001+08:00

哦耶!!
同学们。。。
我回来了。。。
有没有很想念我啊。。。
哈哈哈。。。
我的blog在装修当中。。。
所以是很丑的。。。
大家不要介意啊。。。
赫赫。。。
是否觉得本人的华文进步了呢。。。
开什么玩笑。。。
这篇当然不是她打得啦。。。
是本小姐。。。
苏依珊打得。。。
哈哈哈。。。
她的华文一点进步都没有。。。
而英文就保持水准咯。。。
这篇是在我家打得。。。
今年她老了。。。
已经15岁了。。。
才来post新的文章上来。。。
她是不是很懒惰叻。。。
答案是当然啦。。。
哈哈哈哈。。。
就如此吧。。。
想不到可以帮那位老人写些什么了。。。
哈哈哈。。。
88...

Enough!

2010-03-27T23:44:00.003+08:00

Enough is enough!

I feel like giving up!

I don't wanna care!!!

Argh!!

2010-01-11T23:24:00.003+08:00

It's me!!!!!!!!!! It's all my fault!!!!!!!!!

I'm thinking too much!!!!!

I hope...... :(

Anger

2009-12-22T12:00:00.005+08:00

Did it ever occured to you that I have a life! Back of PEST! It's none of your BIZZ..... Stupid PEST! Don't make me swear! I've put up with you for a long time. Don't push your luck! I already have enough problems, so BACK OFF! Oh.... you know my weakness? BS! What's my weakness?

You never listen! Taddle tale! Because of you I get scolded!

...........................................................................................................

I don't know which way to go, so don't ask me. Cause I'm still trying to figure it out. Don't know what's down this road..... I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Tagged!

2009-12-06T20:44:00.003+08:00

What's wrong with my mom?? It wasn't me who uploaded that stupid picture! Why is she screaming at me? Hell I know it's my fault! But it wasn't me who uploaded it! Why can't she be more like my dad?? He didn't yell at me! Does she know how long it took me to stop myself from crying just now?? Now she wants to make me cry again! Come on! My eyes really hurts! How much can one 13 year old girl take in one day!

She always compares me with kids that has better results. Ok.... never mind that. She say I alway waste money. Ya right! I'm not even a shopaholic! Alway asking me to appeciate what I have, how lucky I am! I do appreciate! I do know how lucky I am! Does she?

My mood is already so bad today and she still wants to make it worst! I really hope no one saw the picture or saved it!! If someone did.... I could say bye bye to my already sucking life! Please Please tell me no one saw it or saved it!!!!! Oh God.... I have no idea when am I gonna get over this.

Why am I such a failure?? Everything is wrong right now! I have so many problems! Why is this happening to me? I'm not that strong! I don't have anyone to turn to anymore... I'm really going to CRACK!

I really miss ... I really do.... Why did you just disappear like this??

2009-11-15T00:34:00.007+08:00

用华文写的？？

2009-11-14T21:54:00.007+08:00

我的眼睛真的很痛。。。我的眼泪一直不停的流。。

为什么我的所作所为都会伤害到别人？是我的错吗？

是我领到他变坏的吗？是我领到他反感的吗？

是我领到她哭的吗？是我领到她那么伤心的吗？

如果是的话。。对不起。。。

其实我真的很了解你的心情，

你当他是客人但他却只当你是路过的人。

你在纸上写的心情，是很痛苦的。

至于斯婷，谢谢你。。

一直都那么的信任我。

你呀！不要再踩下去了啦。

（叹气）

你做不到也不能怪你的，

因为我自己都做不到。

你跟我讲了那么多，我才讲了那么少。。

其实我伤心的原因不只一个，

我一直都在想到底要这么说。

但到最后还是没勇气把它说出来。

不过你放心啦，跟“他”没有关系的。

也许是我不信任别人的关系吧。

因为知从哪次之后，我不敢跟别人说秘密了。

裕珊，我们都经过了很多。。

谢谢你的陪伴。。你比我勇敢很多！加油！！

雯钡，可怜你了！她们竟然这样对你！

你也要加油哦！

chihui，谢谢你在我日记里的留言。

（也要谢谢所有在我日记里留言的人）

现在我才知道原来你们对她的看法是这样的。

还以为你们很喜欢她。原来你们也这样觉得，

还以为只是我这样觉得。。

咏欣，谢谢你的支持！

其实还要谢谢很多人，真的写不完。

你们都知道我的华语是很差的啦，所以请体谅一下。

没有写到你们的，请原谅哦！

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

有些东西是不用说的，用看的就可以了。

（叹气）

我的眼泪还是不停的流。。。

想不到一年那么快的过去了。

很不舍得！

Please leave your comments!

2009-11-10T17:12:00.006+08:00

I'm just a kid and my life is a nightmare! Yesh!! Why do the movies always have endings that won't happen in reality!

Hmmm.... Nobody's perfect.... 你们。。。。觉得我有哪里需改过的吗？我是个这么样的人？？令人讨厌的？令人不爽的？小气的？请你们跟我讲，可以吗？我很想知道。谢谢哦！

Already Gone ~Another random post

2009-11-05T22:49:00.007+08:00

~Already Gone~

Remember all the things we wanted.Now all our memories they're haunted.We were always

meant to say goodbye.Even with our fists held highIt never would've worked out right.We were

never meant for do or die.I didn't want us to burn outI didn't come here to hold you, now I can't

stop.I want you to know that it doesn't matter.Where we take this road someone's gotta go.And

I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better.But I want you to move on so I'm already

gone.Looking at you makes it harder.But I know that you'll find another.That doesn't always

make you want to cry.Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in.Perfect

couldn't keep this love alive.You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go.I want

you to know that it doesn't matter.Where we take this road someone's gotta go.And I want you

to know you couldn't have loved me better.But I want you to move on so I'm already gone.I'm

already gone, already gone.You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong.I'm

already gone, already gone.There's no moving on so I'm already gone.Already gone, already

gone, already gone.Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah.Remember all the things we

wanted.Now all our memories they're haunted.We were always meant to say goodbye.I want

you to know that it doesn't matter.Where we take this road someone's gotta go.And I want you

to know you couldn't have loved me better.But I want you to move on so I'm already gone.I'm

already gone, already gone.You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong.I'm

already gone, already gone.There's no moving on so I'm already gone.

A little piece of advice

2009-10-30T22:30:00.004+08:00

School finally started after 4 days of holiday. Hai..... What would I do without music? I think I would die!!

A little piece of advice.

Fall for someone that will be sure to catch you.

If you found someone that really loves you, don't let go.... Some people search forever for that someone.

Haiz..... Why am I in pain again!! Not looking forward to tomorrow.... Another random day in my random life.

Sleepover!!

2009-10-28T23:52:00.005+08:00

Went to my bff's (the talented girl yong xing) house for the sleepover yesterday^^ FUN! HAPPY!! Hehe.... She fell asleep while we were watching a serie. (Hehe forgotten the serie's name) Haha... She look so cute when she's asleep^^ (Shh.... Don't tell her... or I'll be dead....) Anyways... I went online after she fell asleep. I ended up sleeping about 1.

Woke up about 8 the next morning. Had breakfast... then continued our movie mania!! HEHE!!^^ Unfortunately it ended when my mum came and pick me up.... sob~ Happy times do end fast!

K!! got to go... It's way past my bed time! Good night guys and girlzzzz....

PS: As you can see the pretty girl on the right is yong xing.^^

Decisions??

2009-10-27T17:06:00.005+08:00

Regretsssss...... Decisionsssss........ Oh I hate them!! The voices in my head tell me they know best! I'm not sure any more... it's just so hard....I don't know where to go what's the right thing. Feeling so bad that I'm gonna scream!I can't choose..... so confused!

Ahhhh..... Maybe I was wrong thinking that everything will be alright. Reality killed everything.....

Really need to find ways to release my anger... soon....

~~~~~~~ Sorry

2009-10-26T22:06:00.007+08:00

There's so many quetions in my mind, so many quetion

marks. Quetions that I never seem able to answer. There are

unforgetable pass in my mind that I never seem able to forget yet. There are wounds in my heart that never seems to heal. The painful feelings inside that never seems to fade. There is sadness in me that never seems to go. There is anger in me, waiting to take its revenge. There are tears inside of me that never seems to find its way out. The feelings inside of me waiting to explode.

Some things are just not meant to be yours. No matter how much you appreciate it.... how much you hope that its yours.... I just can't come to accept the fact that this isn't meant to be..... Haiz.......

PS: Please don't simply guess what it is......

My dearest friend...

I would like to apologize to my dearest friend. I'm sorry that I wasn't there when you needed me. I'm sorry that you had to sacrifice everything for me. I apologize also for giving you problems for being such a selfish friend. I'm not a really good friend as you can see. I will try to improve.I hope you would forgive me.

Foolish mE!

2009-10-23T18:25:00.005+08:00

Just when I thought my day couldn't get any worse..... I don't even know where to start. Haiz..... I feel so miserable...I'm sorry if I made anyone angry, and I know I made a stupid decision. I don't know how many people will hate me for this, I won't blame you if you do. I'm sorry....

Same Old Feelings

2009-10-20T21:51:00.006+08:00

Someone told me that there are two types of people in this world.

1. People that are influenced by others 被影响的

2. People that influence others 影响别人的

So, do you know which one are you? Which one do you think I am?

Another person told me that there are three types of people in this world.

1. People that see things happen 看着东西发生的人

2. People that make things happen 使东西发生的人

3. People that don't even know what's happening 不知道到底在发生什么事的人

So.... which one are you?

Yesh..... My tears are overflowing inside. Why does this happen to me? The pain is really unbearable. I really wish I could help myself. Going crazy! Being in pain has become my hobby without realizing it...

Upset

2009-10-19T18:07:00.005+08:00

What a day...... Overjoyed that it's almost over. My tears couldn't help it today. ~~ It's not

because of them ok? Yong Xing can hang out with whoever she wants. I have no right to stop

her, Adeline too. o k? Hate it when you guys think it's the reason. It's not!

Why did I choose a 哥哥 that can't even remember that he has a 妹妹? Stupid right? Well if he

does, does he treat me like one. I guess not~ Yesh.... What's wrong with me?? There's just so

much going on in my mind. I'm going crazy!

Uhhh...... tomorrow... another day to come. Band Practise till 5:30. sob~

Being The New Girl~

2009-10-18T22:07:00.004+08:00

Ugh.............. Tomorrow's Monday already. Not looking forward to it! Sob~

BTW, just visited Sue Ann's blog. Her blog is very nice^^ Love it! Can't wait to tell her

tomorrow~ She was the first person I met from another class. Cause we both transferred to

Tsun Jin High School on the same day.^^ So..... I was safed by her!! Thank god! If not I would

have been the only transferred student on that day, so I thank her for that. Hehe..... I hated

being the New Girl~ Being a New Girl.... is never a good thing. Ugh.....

Changes

2009-10-17T21:36:00.006+08:00

Uhhh.... Another random day just went by. Today I was suppose to attend a friend's

gathering but.... my mom said she planned something, so I couldn't go. ~~ The bright side was

my lunch at Starhill today was great.

Don't feel like going to school lately. Don't feel like facing my friends. I don't know

what's wrong with me. Feeling that people around me are slowly changing, maybe it's just me. I

feel like shouting Leave me alone!! I just can't find as much joy as before.... I'm not the

joyful, playful, friendly me I used to be. I can't find that part of me anymore.

2009-10-04T22:25:00.007+08:00

FYI!! I'm not upset because of Adeline or Yong Yong. Ok? It's so not because of them! Not the reason! Anyways, I would like to apologize if I upset anyone. And thank those who tried to cheer me up^^ Thanks for letting me know that I have friends that care. Thanks girls.... oh and the two song writers.^^

I suddenly feel like migrating as soon as possible.... Leaving all the pain and worries. If I moved now, maybe I won't feel so bad. Haiz.... It's been weeks already, I still can't let go. Keep telling myself it's for the best, but still can't completely let go. USELESS ME!!If I migrate now, maybe I'll forget all this soon.

Ahhh...... I feel like my head's going to explode. I wish they would stop fighting. Exam's coming anyway why do this now? Haiz.... Don't want to think anymore.... None of my biz!!Don't be so bizzy body! Never a good thing if your a bizzy body. Haiz..... Wish all this could just stop, I don't need any more drama.

Really Down~

2009-10-01T17:55:00.005+08:00

Lately there isn't much joy in my live.

Today is my turn to host the speech again, but I don't know why after two

times it still scares me!!! I just can't get over the stage frite, just wish I could get over it. Never mind that I still had lots to worry about. Just when I thought my day couldn't get any worse!! It just got worse! Maybe I was just very unlucky, cause there were so many other students talking without getting caught and I got caught! Ahhh...... I don't know what will happen to me tomorrow. I really don't want to go to "that place"! Why am I so unlucky! If my parents knew, I would be dead. Why am I always the unlucky one?? I really wish like crying already.

Well..... my exam is coming real soon. I really really pray to pass at least. Oh.... really must must must pass. I really feel horrible, there are already 4 friends telling me that my chinese really sucks! GOD~ What was I thinking? Going into a Chinese School? I am really useless, my weakness are more than my strength. That is if I could ever find one. Haiz.... feel like crying again..... I really feel the pain.

In a mess....

2009-09-18T22:08:00.005+08:00

It's been a while seens my last post. For the past few days, alot has happened and I'm really

messed up. I slowly realized I couldn't hide my feelings anymore...

I don't know if I could yell any louder.I can be so mean when I really wanna be. I'm capeble of really anything. I could cut you into pieces..... when my heart is... broken... How did I become so nauseous, what is it with you that makes me act like this. I've never been this nasty.... I think it's still best that I let you go... Cause I foresee the dark ahead, if I stayed. I hope you know that this is nothing to do with you. I just got some straightening out to do.

Haiz... Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they? My mind is really in a mess!! Just

like the paragraph above. All the different kinds of feelings smashed together. The reason I've

been so down lately is mostly not because of this.... There are so many other things to worry

about. For instants, my examzzzzz!!

对不起。。。我的好朋友。。。

2009-09-08T18:47:00.004+08:00

今天我真的笑的很累。。。

嗨。。我真的很想跟你道歉哦.

我在别人的面前忍了很久，一直都很成功。。

但在你面前时，却做不到。。

最近我又不是很开心，在你面前常常脸臭臭的`

好像你欠我这样`

对不起哦，我最好的朋友。。

嗨。。我的朋友又气到我要死！

一直烦我。。骚扰我。。

还问我为什么不会生气的。

还说我生气时很好玩哦。。

忍耐是有限度的咯。。。

叫你停又不会停。虽然我没骂你，

但你自己应该会停吧？

已经很烦很烦了。。忍很久很久了。。。

你还要我再忍？在火上加油啊？

嗨。。对不起我本来不想写你的。

但这是我唯一能发泄的地方。

我真的很烦啊！！

Problems drowning me, I wish it could all fade away.
I also wish I can just accept the fact that it won't happen.

Volleyball

2009-09-06T15:00:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the volleyball tryouts. Well...... at least that was what I thought it was, but it wasn't. It was just a practise, how nice? The tryouts is two months away. I don't think I would be picked. It's not that I'm negative, it's just that I know myself. Sad to say it's just not my thing... But I'm sure my best friend can make it in, she rocks in every sports I've seen her play. Anyways, the practise wasn't as tiring as I thought it would be. No offends but it was actually kind of funny^^